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Holy Spirit Has Called Us Out Of ‘church’

We spent the last three years searching for a church that would simply stand on the bible. We found none! We prayed and God has showed us clearly the ‘church’ of today is pagan, not biblical, and down right evil.

It is not the church(body of believers) of the book of Acts, It is clearly man made and not of God! 

 God is calling his own out of this wicked man made instution called ‘church’! We are out and have never been happier, closer to God, and able to be lead by the Holy Spirit in more ways!

Amen! Thank you Holy Spirit for you guiding my family into all truth!


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I don’t fit in.

Dear Church:

First off, I need to say this: I have an absolutely amazing home church. I’ve been attending for nearly 3 years, and I have never been alienated, neglected, abandoned, or in any way been shown anything but humble love and acceptance, despite my obvious differences from most Christians. When I first started attending this particular church, I was extremely liberal - openly hostile toward the more conservative people in America. At the time, I didn’t consider myself a Christian because I just couldn’t convince myself of it all. The thing that DID eventually convince me was attending this church. The people are all wonderful, loving, exciting, excited, humble, kind, passionate and compassionate people. I had never met Christians like this. They weren’t “political”. They made jokes about conservatives AND liberals. They tried to vote based on their own beliefs. So, I figured, I can do this. The thing was that I really wanted the Jesus story to be true. And I thought that, if it was true, this was the place that I would find out because these people looked like the early Church. So, I became a Christian. I truly did. I decided that I believed what Jesus claimed, that I believed enough of the Bible to be able to follow it (I was never really able to grasp it in its entirety). And to this day, I have never had a bad experience with that church.

The problem comes when I look inward - at my own heart, intellect, and core beliefs - and outward at the Church at large.

When I look inward, I realize that I have beliefs so completely contradictory to the bible and to the followers of Christ that it unsettles me - beliefs that cause me not to believe in Hell, to believe in reincarnation, to believe that there is no holy trinity, to see a lot of merrit in Buddhism and Hinduism, to believe that God is in every person, to believe that humans can be basically good, among other things. The main “inward” problem is my disbelief in the Bible. I can’t accept over half of it. How can I follow Christ if I don’t believe the word of God?

When I look outward, I see that I have beliefs that alienate me from the Church at large - I don’t have a problem with a person being homosexual, I am pro-choice, I am against the war and I am against our government (as in democracy, not just Bush). I see these things, and I HEAR the way Christians talk about people who believe these things, and I know that I DO NOT fit in with it. Furthermore, the anger and hatred I felt towards my fellow Christians revealed to me that I should separate myself from it. God himself said that if a person does not love his fellow Christians, he is a murderer and has never known God.

I don’t think it’s right for me. I feel like there is so much more that I COULD say, but can’t really put into words.

Thanks for listening,

-Mallory


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To my old home church

To my old home church:

I wanted to leave you while I was still in high school, but because of my parents I continued to attend, although I looked for any excuse I could find not to come. You see, I was tired. Tired of the focus being on how to get new people to come, instead of feeding the people already there. I was tired of being appreciated only for the things I did to serve, instead of being valued as a person who needs guidance and support. I was tired of giving, giving, giving, and never receiving spiritual food.

I was deeply hurt by my youth pastor while I was there. I was a major leader in youth group: leading worship, participating in the drama team, trying to be a role model for everyone. And when I finally confessed my addiction to pornography to my youth pastor (the only adult I ever told), he did nothing. I was not asked to step down from any of my leadership roles. He never gave me counsel on how to overcome this problem. I felt ignored and unimportant.

When I left for college, I returned home the first weekend to bring back empty suitcases that I didn’t have room to store in my dorm. I was immediately asked to help out on Sunday morning, even though they were aware all summer that I was leaving for college. I felt that I was not valued as a person, that I was forever stuck serving in the same things, even when it got very spiritually draining for me, because no one else stepped up.

Home church, even though I grew up there and made many good memories, the hurtful things that happened have impacted me so greatly that I do not regularly attend a church now, even though my Christian college wants all students to do so. I’m so afraid of being used again, of being seen only for what services I can provide, instead of being able to receive and grow during a time that has been very spiritually difficult for me. I’m so afraid of being alienated for my shortcomings, of being rejected for the mistakes I’ve made, that I struggle to connect with the Christian community outside of the friends I have at school. When I go home, I try not to attend church. I tried to switch churches during the summer, but that church’s pastor had an affair and had to step down, and my faith in the church was very damaged. In the midst of this challenge, the church handled it well, but I never felt able to connect with anyone because it was such a big church. I eventually stopped going because I felt so alone.

I pray that God helps me work through these issues, and that I can find a church to love and support me through the trials of my life. I don’t want to forsake God and the things I was taught as I grew up. But unless I can find a safe place to worship, I fear that I will spend most of my life on my own.


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From Christianity to Wicca

Imagine a person much like yourself who grows up in a normal family somewhere in America.   He goes to church all his life.   Perhaps he takes his religion more seriously than most people do: he actually studies the Bible, even learning to read it in its original languages (Hebrew and Greek).   By the time he’s 38, he owns more than twenty translations of the Bible, and has memorized over 400 verses … he can quote them verbatim AND tell you the chapter and verse.   Sermons become boring to him; as he listens to them, he is making mental notes about how he would do the sermon better than the preacher.   His Sunday School teachers are nervous when he attends class because they know that if they make a mistake or misquote the Bible, he’ll pick up on it.   He understands the fine points and intricacies of Christian theology, and can explain them better than the “professionals.”  You’d pass him on the street and never give him a second glance.   There’s nothing memorable about his appearance.   He’s just another face in the crowd.

One day he realizes that he’s interested in the occult, not because he thinks he’d ever like to participate in it, but out of pure curiosity.   He begins an intellectual study of witchcraft, Wicca, neo-Paganism, the Goddess, and related subjects.   He starts keeping notes about what he’s learning.

After about 18 months, he becomes aware of a few things: Wicca is not evil, it’s just a different way of looking at the world, and it’s not repulsive to him.   Yes, it seems possible that there IS more than one god (or goddess); it makes sense that the creative force, the sustaining force, of the universe would be “female,” since on our planet, the female is the source of life.

He understands why ancient peoples intuitively attributed creative and nurturing aspects to a FEMALE deity who was wise and powerful and loving.

He takes a new look at the Hebrew god, the god of the Bible, who says that there are no other gods.   He sees an entity whose personality is repulsive: the god of the Bible is a petty, hateful, mean-spirited, vengeful, spiteful being.   The Hebrew god declares that he is a jealous god, and does not allow the worship of any other gods.   This Hebrew god creates a lake of fire where “sinners” (those who break his rules) will go after they die, to be tortured for all eternity.   And who are “sinners?”   The Bible says it’s EVERYBODY (Romans 3:23).

In other words: (1) God creates a category, and calls it “sinners;” (2) he defines the category so that it includes you, me, and everybody else in the entire world; and then (3) he creates a place of ETERNAL TORTURE for those people.

And yet in his Bible, God says, “I am love.” (I John 4:8)

Other religions don’t have anything like God’s hell.   Well, except Islam.   Only a twisted mind would come up with something so hideous and hateful … endless, endless torture.

Can you think of even one person whom you hate enough that you would want him to be tortured FOREVER?   God hates ALL of us that much.

And Biblegod is extremely picky   —   apparently, if you don’t believe EXACTLY the right doctrine, he’ll send you to hell, even if you’re the pastor of a church or a missionary.

Well, back to our middle-aged man.   All of this sinks in, and he realizes, almost to his amazement … that he isn’t a Christian anymore.   He didn’t feel it happening, but over the passage of time … when he wasn’t even looking … he became a Witch.

He never made a conscious decision to walk a new path … he just looked up one day, and he was already on it.   He didn’t DECIDE to be different … he found out one day that he WAS different.   He had changed, profoundly, while he was paying attention to something else.

For a long time, he hadn’t been “fitting in” at church.   He found himself getting into doctrinal arguments with other Christians whose knowledge of the Bible was close to zero.   He quoted the Bible to them (and gave them chapter and verse, in case they wanted to check it for themselves), trying to be as reasonable as possible.   His opponents, cornered, out-gunned, responded with “Well, you’re not really a Christian !”

He began to think, “If this guy is a true Christian, maybe I don’t want people thinking I’m a Christian.”

And the main reason that he finally rejected Christianity was that he realized that he himself was more moral than the god of the Bible.   He found himself mired in a bloody, gory, human-sacrifice religion.   He decided that he didn’t want to participate any longer in the unfruitful deeds of darkness, but instead expose them (Ephesians 5:11).

His Christian, believing soul froze for just a moment while the rest of the universe swivelled around into a new position.

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